collapsing?

thought to have some changes for the blog

end up, was like changed nothing

i don't really know what to change

just loving the way how it be

cried for quite long today

super head ache now

eyes super dry

should go to bed after blogging

some secret of myself, i shouldn't be telling him about that

but, i was totally losing control today

cry like shit, until i don't really know what's really happened

all that i know, i am really stress about the life now

really dying, really killing me

until i can't breath 

the only way i could release myself

only blog, and non stop crying

i don't know who can i talk to

just because i know, nobody likes to hear about people crying to complains about their life

how sucks, how shit about it

honestly, no one cares

so that i do rather to hide, to act like nothing

but when i am alone

terrible shit

not to be a burden, i promised

but seem like i am still, a burden

independent girl? i always thought i am

big wrong of myself

i do really miss the time when i was just staying home and doing nothing everyday

no pleasure, a happy girl, was really the best moment to me

and now, i wonder how happy i can smile for, how loudly i can laughs for

God, if you hear my pray

please tell me what to do

i don't wanna stay in this suffer anymore

*bless me.

wish me to have a nice sleep

nights world

nights people

sleep tight and sweet dream.