29.07.13

不知不觉 毕业3年了

超令人怀念 充满回忆的地方

这一趟回去 感觉真的很特别

我真的很庆幸自己毕业于循人

在这里学习长大

是我成长的地方

谢谢循人

我爱循人

*走到哪里 都是你的影子.

27.07.13

hey guys

it's been a long time

20 days

went for a trip to penang last week 

i never NEVER think of the past will exactly happen again

same places, ever the hotel, just the people doesn't same

yeah, i do felt unbelievable

you will never get back to the time

i know, is really time to move on

no, i'm moving, make it right, i should leave it behind

by the time now, focus on what i should have to

i've got a boyfriend that caring me enough

although always get into fight

but he'll never give up

this is what he trying to prove

love me no matter what, and not giving up easier

i should be thankful

my life isn't only love

but a true cancer, love is everything

anyway, big day for my high school tomorrow

congratulation Tsun Jin

see you guys tomorrow

enjoy and have a great day people

07.07.13

i am officially 21 now

happy belated birthday to me, myself

after years, this is the first birthday without someone

guess i have to used for it, in the future of years

thanks for everyone who came for the birthday party

i really had a great night with all of you

awesome 21 for me

thanks for being around with me whenever i needs

friendships forever

ilygs

too much things in my mind

i wanted to blog it all

but... maybe i should just forget about it

sometimes things better keep it by self, hiding somewhere

you know what, i do miss it.

God Bless.

25.06.13

还有8天 就真正迈进了人生另一个阶段

小时候 常常很想长大变21岁 拿金钥匙 当个大人

真的要到的时候 才发现好想回到小时候

其实大人 并没那么好当

还是小孩儿的天真无邪我比较向往

总会有人跟你说 年轻就要去疯狂

你有本钱 何必忧愁生活点滴?

对 无限的青春我可以消耗

只是放不开 我还在浪费

坚持无谓的无谓

坚守所谓的原则

明明很想抛开 勇气却离我远远

过去 只能怀念

转身回头 也已经没有路可走

走一步算一步 大概也只能这样了

欠下一句对不起

也欠下一个答案

人生没有多少个10年可以等待

虽然我很想 很希望 很期盼

相信我 不是现在 或许未来

如果你懂我

其实一直都没变

*如果可以...

25.05.13

It's been a long time

I am back to here

The world of myself

As you know, when i appeared at here, bad thing happened

Lol

As usual, to release my feelings

People always asking me that why i always doesnt like to share a thing or my feeling

I am sorry, the only way that i could tell, was only blogging with words not by my mouth

I doesnt like to tell ppl about the things of myself by my own mouth

Some ppl think i am really weird enough

Yeah, i am really weird

Forgive me

I couldnt change to be a normal human

Maybe, i really found too much excuses for myself

To prove everyone that i am right

But seriously, what am i trying to prove?

Prove that i really had the best plans for my future?

Prove that i am really not the kind of childish as ppl think of?

Everyone asking me, telling me that to accept the facts, the reality

But why? Why cant i keep the childish thinking just to stay simple of my life?

Yet, ppl around saying me silly

Nowadays, i always pray to god

For giving me the good of life

Bring me out to this suffer

I've got to my limit, i cant longer bear with anymore

Head was like burning everyday

Too much things disturbing me

Until i cant make any decision or to have a positive thinking

Seriously, killing me

I was getting far and far to my dream

Maybe i should just keep it in heart, or forget it forever

Time to face the reality

21 ady, be mature and really time to gross up

Not longer a small girl

Rely on no one but myself 

At the end, i always always couldnt be the girl ppl expecting me to be

I always know, Just an useless silly girl. 

God bless.

02.05.13

转眼的快

原来已经5月了

累人的生活

真让人透不过气

我才真的体会上中学的那种好

好怀念的想当年

20这个年纪 是应该拥有抱负的享受生活

步入社会大学这一圈

想说 人生才真的要开始

却被迫向世界挥手说再见

应该还有很多未完成的梦吧?

和病魔战斗了这么久

辛苦了 算是解脱 是时候让自己休息了

对不起 都没抽出时间去看你

也谢谢你 让我懂得更珍惜身边的每一个人

希望下辈子你会活得更健康幸福

在天堂的你 祝福你

*lovelife.

collapsing?

thought to have some changes for the blog

end up, was like changed nothing

i don't really know what to change

just loving the way how it be

cried for quite long today

super head ache now

eyes super dry

should go to bed after blogging

some secret of myself, i shouldn't be telling him about that

but, i was totally losing control today

cry like shit, until i don't really know what's really happened

all that i know, i am really stress about the life now

really dying, really killing me

until i can't breath 

the only way i could release myself

only blog, and non stop crying

i don't know who can i talk to

just because i know, nobody likes to hear about people crying to complains about their life

how sucks, how shit about it

honestly, no one cares

so that i do rather to hide, to act like nothing

but when i am alone

terrible shit

not to be a burden, i promised

but seem like i am still, a burden

independent girl? i always thought i am

big wrong of myself

i do really miss the time when i was just staying home and doing nothing everyday

no pleasure, a happy girl, was really the best moment to me

and now, i wonder how happy i can smile for, how loudly i can laughs for

God, if you hear my pray

please tell me what to do

i don't wanna stay in this suffer anymore

*bless me.

wish me to have a nice sleep

nights world

nights people

sleep tight and sweet dream.

23.04.13

当你以为事实被告知以后

会得到体谅和明白

但原来 不是每个人都会用心 去谅解你

反正我也习惯了 

也不是每个人都能真的明白

习惯就好

about love

Hey, I am back :)

just came back from baby's hometown today

honestly, i am happy to be with him.

day by day, love you more than i can say

although sometimes i really feel like giving up to escape the problems

but i am still choosing to stay, for fight, to make it better

just sometimes i wish to be concern more by you

i do love you, like you love me.

thanks for the moments, i know you are working hard to be my better man

i knew and i really saw your efforts

i am not taking for granted

am doing my best to be better to you

fighting for the better future.

i've got no point by posting this

just to release my feeling

i don't know why, having the very strong feeling

i always wonder how much do i love this guy

and now, i got it

more than i thought

this is love.

*ily,eshh.

09.04.13

每天的每天 人们都为了实践自己的梦想而奋斗努力着

有目标的人生 向往梦想的未来前进

而对于一个 没有目标 或是 有目标而不能实践的人

又是什么样的心情存在着?

我常常在抱怨 为什么没有人能理解我

甚至跟自己最亲近的那个

到头来 原来也是和别人一样

用一样的眼光看待自己

是难受 是委屈 

那又能怎么样?

也只能听着别人说的不是 静静地受了下来

妈咪说

我从来不受约束 因为我只忠于自己

这样的行为 我被批判为刁蛮任性

在我自己看来 我只是在做最真实的自己

我从来就不爱和现实做朋友

当钱的奴隶 我是真的很鄙视

这样的我 又被批判为天真幼稚

其实我也只是有自己的想法

不想因为钱 去改变任何的东西

反倒 不富裕的生活 其实才是最纯朴快乐

倒是有一样 是真的准没错

我没有承受压力的身心

是因为我觉得 我没必要去为无关要我的事 加重自己的担子

做好自己 简简单单 开开心心 不是很好?

人就一定要向现实低头? 

很抱歉

改变自己 我做不到.