RachelYong0703♥

so it's 0439am in the morning

i should be sleeping but awake

was very unhappy

i can't sleep

i wondering why, so many "she" around him

yeah, he is always showing he is a 100% good man

and forget to show me how many % good for being a bf

friends are always more important than me

i been dating him today for a week

he still hanging out with friends

i should be angry, right?

idk, maybe i'm just nobody for him

i shouldn't ask for anything

what am i blaming? scolding? 

cos he break his promise?

treating me not enough good, unfair?

i really don't know

time, chance

i'd gave everything he needed

everything as normal, not changing

this's what he wanna show me? he can't?

yeah, cos he choose not to change for me

he always being good for everyone but not me

he do say he care about me, but why, i don't get and feel it?

maybe, maybe i wants him to show me more

but failed

i can't imagine my future, future with him

quarrel everyday? or more serious we fight? 

i really don't know

i was lost

afraid

i rather to be alone, with family but not him

but i got no choice, forever ever, he will be appear in my life

much more better after talking out

i have to sleep now

thank you for being here with me, my blog

i love you

good night