i have nothing to blog today

just came to say GN to all of you

Good Night People 

sleep tight and sweet dream

ily :)

♥LeeHom's New Song♥

i think i'm having a very good mood now

should have a very nice sleep and sweet sweet dream tonight

thank God :)

 only God know what am i thinking, and make it real

iloveyouGod

♥

mid of the night again

0242am

i plan to sleep at 2am

but failed

after blog, have to off to sleep

mommy said, is really time i should have a plan for my future

gorgor said, i'm wasting my time doing nothing, i have to stop it

me, i have no plan for my future, no idea what to do

they are worrying about my future, so am i.

useless, i really useless

why i can be so blur for my future?

getting mad on myself

i'm stupid, an idiot

kill me.

raining monday night

time showing 0122am

i'm not sleepy

have nothing to post

but i am here

mid of the night

listening to songs, blogging

i'm enjoying

:)

my life, getting simple and simple

everyday doing same things, nothing special

but i really like it

at least i got my family with me everyday

friends cares me

i'm not alone

although i had lost the he, 

but God giving me another better life

appreciate

Thank God, for loving me all the time.

*ilovemyjay,somuch.

good night pretty world

he is smiling without me

someday, i can smile without him too

i believe that, i can.

*good night world.

slept at 4am, woke up at 9am

quite tired today

chat with some friends last night

few hours, idk what we are taking about

i'm so blur

they trying to make me smile

i'm sorry, jokes doesn't make me smile

useless, yeah i am.

received alot of calls today

dating me out

i'm so sorry, really not in the outing mood

wanna stay at home, don't feel like going out

give me some time, i will meet all of you someday

wait for me, kay?

went to see doctor, thank God finally

i don't have to go back to the place anymore

i'm getting better, feeling good

but mommy still wants me to stay at home rest

1 of the reason why i'm not going out

mommy so worry about me

i think i stay with her, she will feel much more better

at least don't have to call me in time, worry i pengsan at outside

body still weak

why my body so weak? really don't like.

when i'm alone, i feel like crying all the time

too stress, too tired

cannot afford

very lost, i'm afraid.

God, save me

i don't want to be alone

不开心了好几天

闹情绪， 脾气在作祟

是我还不够清楚自己应该站在什么位置去面对?

还是我在期盼他看穿我, 实践他的话?

人总变得很快

这一刻会想你, 但是下一秒 已经不是了

只是我的脑袋 适应不了这样的转变

想念的话 还是牢牢在脑海里 挥散不去

自作自受 自欺欺人 我是难过得活该

好人 坏人 这个世界不会有百分百的人

人总有缺憾 你可以要求些什么?

我明明清楚明白很多的道理

听不明 说不清, 我到底在逃避什么?

此时此刻, 我终于明白

是我把你看得太重, 把自己也看得太重

我也差点忘了, 我只是过客

谢谢你, 提醒了我

过客, 没有尊严的过客?

我会记得你在我需要你的时候 你选择逃避我

哭了 累了

你也只是 我的 过客


what am i crying for?
what i want?

Good Good Day ♥

2 good news

best thing ever

a very big big and good good news

i'm lucky girl

saw it?

i don't have to go NS anymore, forever and ever

thank God, finally

thank you to myself, body weak so that don't have to go

i actually very excited

:)

another good thing

yeah, i finally get my BB9780

why don't get the new one?

i don't really like both of the new one

i like 9780 the most

2 best news in 2011

a very happy day today

i love 20/09/2011

:D

i'm feeling better today

good mood make me feel much better

beside happy, abit sadness

i wanted to share my happy with him

i miss him the whole day

holding my phone, wanna text him

but i know i can't

keep my promise

i want him to find me

:(

i miss you, and i can't wait to be in your arms again

friends read my last post

all of them started texts me, calls me, comments me

they worry about me, care about me

they wanted to show me, they're still remember me, i'm still important

they will be with me all the time

Thanks People

I read all the comments and texts

I'm touched

but sorry for i'm not calling back

cos my phone had out of credit

i'm so sorry

anyway, 

thank you for being here with me

ILYGs

how's you guys?

i'm still sick, body still weak like hell

mommy don't let me out before i recover

everyday, without staying home, i'm sticking with mommy going everywhere

like a kid, can't live without mommy

he left, no one is here to protect me

so i stick with mommy, she protect me

ily mom

i miss everyone, i miss You,

sick for a long time

still not recover yet

exhausting everyday

when i click in to my blog

i saw the chat room:

12 Sep 11, 06:55 AM

Anonymous: I'm sorry.

i was guessing who saying sorry to me

yeah, the person came out from my mind was him

but i don't think he will still read my blog

and leave comments to me

i'm just nobody
that won't be him

but honestly, i wish that was him
i wish he will still care about me

wish that he will miss me like how much i miss him every moments and seconds

yeah, i'm dreaming

phone is still off+ing

without here, i'm still disappear everywhere

i don't wanna meet anyone

i don't wanna explain what happened to me

i'm sorry

maybe someday, friends will forget about me

i'm not important anymore

In everything I do, I hear, I eat, I smell, I see... I always remember [somebody]

i'm just trying hard to be happy.

一个意外

改变了我原有的生活

我以为 从此我的故事 就开始改写

也再因为一个意外

让开始改变的生活

回到了原点 最初的那一个地方

故事再次回到改变前的最后一刻 继续进行着

我消失了很久?

一直不断地有人在找我

没在上网 不出门去 关了电话

我彻底的让自己消失了一阵子

这一次 我真的需要一个没有声音的地方

用自己的方式 让自己得到释怀

对不起 让你们忧心 担心了

我爱的人 不是我的爱人

世事就是这么不完美

你不能祈望你很爱的人一样的在爱你

根本不可能

我们不再是我们

大难临头 各自飞

我也终于 深深地 体会到了

没有人是绝对靠得住

爹地 妈咪 哥哥 甚至 弟弟

也已经不会再让这个人再次出现在我的生命当中

不能被原谅的错 他背负了全世界人对他的好

其实他一点都不稀罕 我给的一切

我的 根本微不足道 不会被看见

我没有再次看清这个人

不能接受 不能相信

为什么 每一次 都要让我发现发觉 这样的残酷?

我真的有这么糟糕? 不值得?

一个人, 破坏了 我很美好的一生

这是我 人生里 第一个 脱不去的 污点

一辈子的遗憾 一辈子的阴影

我有很爱很爱我的家人

我第一次深深感受到 他们每一个人 对我的爱

原来他们 最爱最爱的 是我

我从来没有发现 他们对我的好

我应该惭愧 我哭不是因为我难过 是难受

我一直不顾家人的反对 还是坚持要跟他在一起

即使是这么错的决定 他们选择让我做自己喜欢的事

只要我开心就好

却一直在背后帮我收拾烂摊子

从小到大 任性的 都一直是我

对不起

都告一段落了吧

告诉自己 不能回头再看过去

勇敢踏出这一步 从新开始

我不要原地踏步

我不要记得不属于不再存在的意外

我要记得不能再让任何一个人再为我落泪

没有任性 我要成长

昨天 很谢谢一个人

一个 陌生的朋友

我很喜欢她

我相信她会明白我

有时候 一个陌生人 总会比身边的人 还能看得更清楚

当局者迷 只有陌生人看得最清

当我毫无防备把自己的事告诉别人

我绝对信任这个人 我更希望我的真心 能真的换来一个值得交的朋友

谢谢你 在我很无助的时候借了我你的时间

客套的安慰 虽然起不了啥作用

但是一字一句 记在心里 我不会忘记 

在我很需要的时候 有你的出现 这是让我非常窝心的事

很谢谢你 很喜欢 你 这个 朋友

学着去忘记 我爱的人

*祝福我*